what kind of life is that? All the days screaming and shrieking into a mass of tortured ears and torn moments. Each moment trying, to no real gain. Don't you remember why your wanted me in the first place. There was a time you wanted to be challenged to fun adventures Now you can't remember fun and dread adventure I push pull you day by day towards light. And end up low in your regard. Disdain rules your action. S
Contentment is a gift i would like to share. all questions that are needed for survival are answered... that is the answer to all lifes troubles [e digicons]:meow:[/e]
Waiting unkissed in the corner dreaming of manparts intersecting me wishing for passion sex addict screaming loins shouting for release where is my satisfaction and fulfillment in so many ways i can do for myself but not this xo
You have to touch every life, every light a little quantum bit. if you see it if you touch it if you smell it if you do it if you taste it don't waste it don't screw it UP don't tell it don't much fit just be it now. now. now. here and dear
I've stubbed my toe on reality again... I was coasting along so well, but you know that had to change. The kid who is the center of my life is growing, and I am no longer the center of her orbit. Right and properly so. But... in the process of growing, she is rejecting me and choosing her father. Wanting to go to that other school. Farther away from me. I undrestand it. But i hate it. This rejection hurts. For her eyes,
I live in a fractal world. my reality folds back in on itself and love is all that matters. the real reality is the heart and the currency is passion. quantum reality is used by the brain. the spaces between the synapse forms a quantum computer. it is where the act and influence of observation touch those pesky pairs. the ones spinning through the universe. positron and and antipositron, muon and quark. our thoughts are connected. if we see them they see us. seems pretty logical reall
i miss helen it slipped out, in a tear and sob, ripping unexpectedly through my evening ennui. so sad so lost from me days since i smelled her, or took care of her, touched her curllllll..... my little girl Lost to me... and my old cat Fluffy is dying, and Melody crying lost herself in the wilderness... Jamie doubting and rifts being torn and we speak and speak and speak. Drama swirling. What a waste. energy lost into anger rather than into th
My mind is sucked into the vortex of reality at the edges and actuality at the now touching the edge of the dream of you remembering kisses burning on my lips the warmth of warmth sweet as sun basking on my skin waves crashing pushing wetness Sleep you soundly over there ,,,,,,,,,,,,, i will watch you breathe and be comforted by your nearness
just like you! oh, you are so busted.. I've been busy tonight. Shopping, cleaning, tending to pets, watching TV (ack) i guess i'm really a bum if i have time for tv! I've been trying not to think about Helen. It sucks. I miss her terribly sometimes. Broke out in sobs, tears have been chasing me all day. Cranky and mean, ungrateful
and i ache for you miss your warmth, laughter, the smell of your skin you are not dead, just gone to another life where i cannot touch you forbidden by the ex, censured from motherhood i ache with missing my baby tonight Damn
Somewhere bubbling inside, there sometimes stirs unrest. That tightening feeling that i must do something. Something about nothing, anything. Restless thoughts. Twisted blankets. Wondering about legacies and the meaning of life. Does information cross the barrier of a black hole? Why does that matter? Will i turn to dust when i die? Will my life le
Who could you be talking about???
I'm ready to chatter, with no one to hear. Waiting for you my dear.
My imagination too... The echo of your hand warming me. My body will never forget burning with residual heat your touch lingers so lovely
1995 Indy Pace Car Replica, 12,000 miles 5.7 liter V8 with 300 horsepower... Metallic Purple over arctic white with white convertible top... OMG it's a hot car!
Up to my garage doors, and inside parked, at bay ... Not roaring that throaty roar And glistening in the warm summer breezes turned to gale force wind at the touch of my foot on the pedal Loosey goosey is gravity's hold on this 5.7 liters of highly tuned mechanical excellence... Perfect, sleek and speedy. Gaudy and loud and ever so shiny. A
Maybe she is actually reading some, and maybe Simon is too... If you are, Thanks for all the blogs you wrote once upon a time. I've always been more of a lurker than an active participant. You've always been the busy one. Struggling through life, but making it somehow, and keeping your heart open. I enjoyed your opinions. I felt for your life
Remember if you breast feed after the birth, that can be VERY helpful in permanent healthy weight reduction. Right now you are eating and dieting for two, so try to follow the recommendations... then you can do whatever you want after... But seriously, I breast fed, and gained 24 pounds. In 3 months I'd lost it all and more. Sly
:"> Thanks, mig... as you can probably tell, i like your stuff too... sly
I have said that my roll at work, the job they pay me to do, is to be a conduit. A channel of information, a flow of connections and amplifications. My job is to magnify the work that others do. To execute their structure. I must translate transparently the movement of others. I must accept the guidance of others. ... Bah ... i lead ...<B
Good that you got some satisfaction in a response. The guy isn't fired, but having to change stores is clearly NOT a "good career move". Nice to know some corporations will actually respond to their customers!
Thanks for the info. Thanks for hosting us...
Excellent! Makes me proud of my own battle scars...
So, we are doing the wild thing. (Not the wild thing you are thinking about. Even wilder.) Our world is connected and intertwined. Yet still my fears linger and cloud my thoughts. So i take them out and shake them loose and show them the light of day. What are they that they are so transparent and ephemeral, and yet so pervasive and persuasive? It isn't th
Thanks Texas Wahine! Big J, we talked... Thanks for taking me out of that rat race, and all the confusion and confused mess I was getting to be... xoxoxo
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