I'm going back

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Okay okay, it's not 100% sure yet, BUT I might be going back to Port Vila on the 12th of May for the weekend returning to Nouméa on the 15th!!!!

Now I'm supposedly getting a FREE OF CHARGE ticket, IF my boss writes a request to the airline company. So tomorrow I'm getting her to sigh the letter, I'll drop it off to them, and I'll be staring at the phone full day hoping for a positive answer. I'll still have to pay for the airport taxes but it's ok, even if I had to pay the ticket I would go!!

Then when it's all confirmed I need to check where in Vila I'll be staying. There is a resort where I know I can get free of charge accommodation for all three nights, but the thing is that it's a bit far, and that it's on an island. I dont wanna take a ferry everytime I go back to the hotel. But anyhoo, hopefully I'll be able to have something else on the main land!

Some of you might kill me (I'm thinking of you Shovel: i'm returning to my folly I know I'm being a fool), because on the 15th of May is Darren's birthday *oops*. And well yeah I know I shouldnt be going there at that time. But the boss is giving me one day off and it's been nearly 9 months I havent returned there and I miss the place and a lot of people. And yeah, him too or should I say, especially him...

Ah damn it!!! I know I'm not supposed to expect anything from him when I'm over there. I just hope he wont ignore me. And I know it's going to hurt me again. I'M INSANE. :(

Right now I'm so excited to the thought of going back but I am also scared of seeing him. Shit, I wish this butterflies in my belly would fly away. I wish my heartbeat would slow down. I wish my cheeks werent burning.

I've convinced myself many times of the contrary, but this is what I really should say:

I wish I didnt love him anymore.
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Reply #1 from JoeUser Forums Top
Have fun on both trips.  I hope they turn out very well for you.
Reply #2 from JoeUser Forums Top
Thanks Dr Guy, I'm sure it'll be fine.. well i hope!
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Reply #3 from JoeUser Forums Top

Thanks Dr Guy, I'm sure it'll be fine.. well i hope!

We can advise and discuss, but your life is yours.  And while I think of you as a daughter, I know we must cut the umbilical cord and let you fly.  I pray that all will be well.  And hope for the best.  As you are the best.

But like your father, should things not be perfect, we can be here for you at least in a cyber way. 

BTW: Heard you dodged a tsunami today.  Maybe that is an omen?  A good one?

Reply #4 from JoeUser Forums Top
We can advise and discuss, but your life is yours.

Thank you DrGuy.

And while I think of you as a daughter, I know we must cut the umbilical cord and let you fly. I pray that all will be well. And hope for the best. As you are the best.

Aww, thanks again. *sniff* I'm crying alittle now, but it's coz i'm down with the flu so basically anything can make me cry right now.heh.
What you said here is very comforting. I dont want to bother you guys with my insignificant stories you know. But sometimes i need to write stuff down. Makes things clear in my head.

But like your father, should things not be perfect, we can be here for you at least in a cyber way

Again thank you, for being here.

BTW: Heard you dodged a tsunami today. Maybe that is an omen? A good one?

Really? I didnt even hear bout that! The whole world could drown that i wouldnt know. Time to get some fresh air maybe!
Reply #5 from JoeUser Forums Top
Have a great trip regardless. Enjoy seeing your old island home and catching up with friends and, as you say, que sera sera... Maybe D will be as happy to see you as you will be to see him. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.
Reply #6 from JoeUser Forums Top
Thanks mate. I cant believe i'm stressing so much, this should be a piece of cake, right?
Reply #7 from JoeUser Forums Top
Yeah, it should be but it is best to go in prepared, I suppose.
Reply #8 from JoeUser Forums Top
I sent him an email saying i'd be going there for his birthday and he was happy. Then I told him it wasnt sure and that I needed to book accommodation too and all that. He replied by offering that I stayed at his house if I wanted to. But he was also very careful to note that he didnt know how it would be like and he also stated that it probably wasnt a very good idea but that we could think about it. I'd love to stay at his place, but I think it's going to be awkward.
Reply #9 from JoeUser Forums Top
Cant edit that last comment shit! Just wanted to add, that i'm looking for my own accommodation. And the ticket is still not confirmed!!!!!!!
Reply #10 from JoeUser Forums Top
Glad you're finding your own place to stay. It's probably for the best (though I seem to have missed some things in my absence from JU)

Have a safe trip!