I'm sorry

Dont be angry at yourself....everything will work out.

Ns38

if you need to delete and there isn't a button for it, log out, log back in, it usually comes back

hope that helps

Sam, I've been reluctant to write this for a while now, but I feel obligated to at least let you know how I feel and what is really going on. I know you may not be particularly fond of me for reasons that I have been blinded to until recently when I heard something about how you felt about me. I first want to apoligize for giving off wrong signals. I never EVER ment it to hurt you in any way. I admire you in every way possible and I hate it that I have caused you to feel this way about me. I do not like Alex in that way and I never liked Allen, either. I know we aren't what you would call friends, but I have always wanted to get to know you better. I hope that you can tell me how you are feeling and tell me what you perfer i do about it. I was never aware that you were having these feelings, and now that I am, I hope that we can work it out!

~Kinjruh~

Let me tell you something sam. God has a plan for you, even if you dont know it. These feelings you may be feeling upset you but you need to look at the positive side of things....Trust me everything will work out...and I mean everything.

~Live Life to the Fullest~
Ns38

Let me tell you something sam. God has a plan for you, even if you dont know it. These feelings you may be feeling upset you but you need to look at the positive side of things....Trust me everything will work out...and I mean everything.

Yes, exactly...listen to Jeffers, Sam. He knows more than he realizes.

~Zoo

Jeffers, I don't know what is up with you lately. but keep it up! You are giving some awsome advice, and It's all very inspiring!

Your friend,
Kinjruh

Kendra, i am glad you were the mature one and stepped forward first. To be brutally honest i did have a resentment toward you because i assumed everything. I am the biggest coward i know and i shy away from problems.... or i get involved and make them worse. I am glad we have our feelings on the table now and now the wall between us can diminish. I admire YOU in every way possible... and it was seriously nothing agaisnst you. It's hard to explain, but it was more the "idea" (i dont know what i'm talking about, never mind.)

But, i am sincerely sorry for assuming.... it was because of my assuming all of us are in this mess.

Thanks Kendra
Sam

Well, I am tired of people assuming. I am sick and tired of the people I trusted the most turning there backs on me during the time I need them the most.

Don't you think I have been TRYING to talk this out with him Brandon? I am not ignoring it and hoping it goes away, I am trying to fix it. And almost every time I do we almost always get into a fight about something someone said. You don't understand how HARD I am trying to fix this!!! I can only do so much, but then in the back of my mind.... it feels like you guys are really trying to push him away from me.

I guess I have no one to confide in…. because you guys are sick and tired of me trying to help fix the problem I started.

You know what, blame me... none of it is Alex's fault. It's all mine. It was my assuming and trusting other peoples’ word against Alex’s that tore us apart. Push me away, I really don't care. I am going to wither away into oblivion, and the saddest thing is.... I don’t even think you guys will care.

This is for everyone who was and is affected by this whole thing.... I am sorry. I say that from the bottom of my heart. Alex and I agreed that everyone we relied on and cried to was drug down with us. Well, all I have to say is you don’t need to waste your time on me anymore. If I am hurting your feelings... then ignore me. I don’t think I can hurt anyone else, so these feelings shall remain in me for now.

I am not trying to be rude or mean or anything of the sort. But, I think that this conflict needs to be discussed between Alex and me. I don’t think that everyone should be trying to help out anymore, because that seems to only make everything more difficult.

Maybe and hopefully, Alex and me can have a very serious discussion about how we are going to fix everything we've broken. It is possible, and I know we can do it.... we just need to both find it in our hearts not to argue.

I am going to post this on both of my latest articles so everyone can see…

Sam

Brian, that has to be some of the best advice I have heard. But then I feel that God may be testing Alex and I and waiting for us to resolve the problem. I don’t know… but your advice is still very comforting. Thank you.

No problem sam, and I do think that god is testing you but you must be able to pull through. Trust me We all care what happens....Even if they dont say it, on some level they do. Just tell Alex completely how you feel dont be afraid anymore. I am sure you can work something out with him.

~Live Life to the Fullest~
Ns38

Jeffers...get the heck out of my head...holy crap, that's exactly what I said a little while ago...damn. You must be paying close attention to something...you're doing quite well.

~Zoo

I dont think I am in your head....what...move your right hand and poke your nose....did it work?..

~Live Life to the Fullest~
Ns38

Well, I am tired of people assuming. I am sick and tired of the people I trusted the most turning there backs on me during the time I need them the most.

If you're so tired of people assuming, look at what you've done. You have also been assuming, and you've admited to it too. So if you want others to stop, then I suggest you stop. Why do you say that people you trusted in turned their backs on you. No offense but I think it's the other way around. People that trusted you have had your back turned against them. And that could possibly be because you assume things that aren't true. Like assuming that Alex cheated on you while you were going out. Now I would have to say you turned your back on him there. Think about this.

morethanme~ I think you should leave these kids alone. in that article you wanted to delete you basically said exactly what you wanted to, but now you're too scared to admit to it? that's not a good way to do things sweety. maybe you should learn to just shut you pie hole and move on.

pee piper